My sister just asked me to photograph her wedding tomorrow...in the ICU where we just placed our mom on DNR.

I don’t really know where else to talk about this because I’ve kept most of the details private aside from some clients it’s affecting but over the last last three weeks, my mother entered the ICU for a failed stent which has lead to seven different surgeries, a multitude of complications including the loss of a leg, the possible loss of another, blown arteries, a tracheotomy, dialysis and sepsis.My sister and I have spent the better part of the three weeks bedside with her husband making decisions every 24 hours but her most recent complication has lead to the doctors running out of options. Because of this, my sister has moved her wedding date to happen privately at the hospital so mom can witness it and requested that I photograph the occasion. I can fully understand why she’s wanting to do this.A little about me, I’m a full-time photographer who works mostly with rock stars as well as local events and private work all as a photojournalist. I only became this after spending ten years in the wireless industry before returning to school for media. And I only got there because my mother pushed me to be the dreamer and do everything to peruse what I love. I’ve covered a wide range of work in my career but this is something that I’m not sure how I can handle. Of course I want to do it and of course I will give it my best eye possible but I just don’t know how I’m going to find the strength to hold it together. It’s hard to see my mother in this state, let alone document it, but it’s what my sister wants and I know I’ll ultimately regret it if I declined.I don’t know why I’m posting this other than looking for strength to carry through. As vitriol as this community can be at times, I know it’s always found ways to speak to me when I needed it. So I guess I need to be told by somebody that isn’t emotionally attached that these photos will matter and that it isn’t in bad taste. Being no stranger to journalism, I know that these photos can have impact if I approach it correctly....but right now, I’m having problems even typing these words, let alone contemplating how I’m going to do this. Thanks for hearing me out. via /r/photography https://ift.tt/2EPydOs