Should your camera inspire you to create?

This is something I’ve been asking myself over the past few days, having spent a good portion of the month going through countless videos and posts related to various cameras, detailing differences between APS-C and full frame sensors, the differences between DSLR and mirrorless cameras, etc. Moreover, the cost of lenses, accessories, and just about everything that’s relevant to what I want out of a camera.It’s been a frustrating experience, to say the least. With every option, there are downsides. There are compromises that you’re required to make. Naturally, nothing is perfect in life, and I can accept that. The issue is that the camera that I’ve settled on doesn’t inspire me.On paper, it’s everything I need: great low light, high iso performance, fair autofocus speed, decent, though expensive, lenses, and many of the common benefits of mirrorless systems (focus peaking, great for legacy lenses, and more). But, I don’t like it, and that bothers me.I keep telling myself, “you’ll get used to it.” “You may grow to enjoy shooting with it.” Though, is that a healthy frame of mind to be in as a photographer?It’s the camera that is gonna get the job done. I want to get into music photography and portraiture. I want clean, professional results. I want to start out on the right foot with my gear, so that I don’t have to flip-flop between systems. I’m sick of spending more time researching cameras instead of technique, developing concepts or ideas for my photography, or, most important, being out shooting. So, do I just deal with it?You hear things like “the camera is just a tool” or “what matters most is the 12 inches behind your lens.” It’s you as the photographer that creates the image. It’s dependent on your creative vision. The camera is just a bunch of parts. It feels nothing. It knows nothing of a beautiful portrait, capable of telling the subject’s life story. It can’t see that breathtaking cityscape from some choice vantage point that you’ve scouted out.Now, while this is true and is something that I feel a lot of people need to be reminded of, your gear also plays a part. Granted, there are people with bounds of talent that are shooting cameras over a decade old, old crop sensor bodies, film cameras, you name it.But, taking it back to full frame versus crop sensor bodies, having used Fuji X cameras, I can see the difference between their newer models and, for example, Sony’s most recent full frame models. The difference is there. You see it chalked up to a stop of light, but there’s more to it than that, right? DOF, higher MP options, etc. The jump isn’t as significant as APS-C to medium format, of course, but it’s there.I don’t intend to make this out to be a FF versus crop sensor debate. I’m not here for that. I don’t have examples to show. Plus, there’s so much conflicting information on the subject that it’s just a mess. One popular YouTuber says X, while another refutes with Y.I’m a total noob, just starting to try and take this seriously. I can see the difference, and that’s what matters. I want the best quality that my budget can afford, and all signs are pointing to a camera that I don’t really want to use for enjoyment.So, I’m here, asking whether or not your camera inspires you to create? Is it just a tool to you? Your camera the drill, while your lenses the screws.At the end of the day, the real answer is to buy both cameras, which I might end up doing. I just thought I’d see how other people feel about this.Am I crazy? Am I wasting my time? I want to get a camera and never look at another review, another “versus” post, another whatever, ever again.Thanks, y’all!Note: apologies if this isn’t formatted well. I’m on mobile and don’t know what I’m doing. via /r/photography http://bit.ly/2UPZ3uC